So I've been spending time with this guy... He's smart, successful, busy. Works hard at his career and wants to excel and be and do better. I love that quality. I enjoy the time we have. He lives an hour and 15 away from me. So distance plays a mild part. Our schedules are hard but it works. I honestly don't know how I feel. I value the time, the connection, the vulnerability, but I haven't truly let my guard down with him. Apart of me I guess is trying to protect my heart and figuring out exactly where I fit. I like this guy. He makes me feel things I haven't felt in a long time. This man makes me feel so confident and sure of myself. He cares for me in a way I can't even describe. If he were to read this I don't know if he would know what I'm talking about lol. But I do. I bought some things for me, for him & im excited to show him, that's kinda where we're at.
I am open to whatever this is.
work lately for me has been trying. I don't know what my future holds for harps. I don't know if that is my future. I do know that I wanted to grow with this company and I wanted to learn everything it offered me. I have grown so much in the short time I've been with the company and I only hoped to exceed in that for years to come. Now I'm not so sure. I feel like I'm being held back and hindered from excelling. I feel like certain others I work with could care less about what i say or the reason behind it. One Imparticular, well two now I guess, they're best buds so here's my sign lol.
I'm by no means perfect, but I strive to be perfect in my job. I do things by the book, I do not falter from It. There's the right way of doing things and the wrong way. There's the right way to respond to people and the wrong. To assume something isn't correct. To suggest something is better, but still wrong. Misunderstandings happen more often than not when communication isn't there. Getting angry over your miscommunication and then telling me I'm not allowed to talk about it is humerous. lol 😂 girl please. Only be upset with your actions. If you want to excel and be better in your job, then do better. Open your mind to different ways of doing things.
I have had no reason to lie about anything. Nothing to gain, nothing to lose. I will treat you with respect, as long as I get respect. Period.
in all things, don't waste my time. That is something you can't get back.
until next time...
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