It is said when you love someone you feel it through every fiber of your being. I don't feel it anymore. He bought me flowers and his favorite chocolates. We had breakfast this morning at Lucy's diner in Roger's, AR. Food was decent, but there was no talking, just silence. Got home and more silence. The only thing we openly communicate on is the dog. At least by now he should know something is amiss. And maybe he does and maybe that is why he is equally quiet. Either way, I feel more safe now telling him on Friday the 20th that I am leaving on the 21st, which would give him ample time to leave if he doesn't want to be here when mom and dad get here Saturday.
today was supposed to be a day about love and appreciation and I didn't feel it.
im glad I'm getting a week to myself before I transfer. Just to cleanse my mind from what's coming up this week and erase everything the last three years brought me.
the only thing I am thankful for in this moment, is being in the best financial position possible. I have been able to lay down 95% of my debt in two years and be shown what it is in life and love that I am capable and deserving. Found out a lot about myself in ways I can't explain and won't.
remember to be kind, find the good in all things and be good to your mental health.
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